Shirley, why are we in this state now? I really wondered.
I dont think I have done anything wrong, isnt it?
I dont think I deserved this kind of treatment, I felt just innocent.
You think for yourself, whenever it comes to money problem, who is the one who helped you? Is this what I get in the end?
You still remember, during June. All of us have money problem. I am the one who is helping you guys to clear the debts. I have to borrow money from my close friend. I have to say sorry on the behalf for you all.
During July, I went HK. I just merely tweet to Xander that I am going to see him in HK as well. & you cannot stand me and you scolded me in twitter and telling people that both of us are quarrelling. Hmmmm, I dont think I did anything wrong, alright? He is an idol, IS FOR PUBLIC TO SEE AND NOT FOR YOURSELF! & during my HK trip, do you know that I am unhappy? Do you ask? DO YOU EVEN CARE? NO! It seems like my fault? Before this trip, I tried to call/text you, you dont even answer/reply me. & I kept on looking at the tweets you tweeted, it really hurts me alot. & I HAVE TO MAKE INTERNATIONAL CALL THROUGH XIANGNING THEN YOU PICKED UP! What is this?! Do you know that I cried alot in the hotel? NO, YOU DONT EVEN KNOW! After my trip back to SG, I get to meet you up during FCUZ events. During the universal studio, you are pissed off! Why? Because I didnt call you and tell you where Ye Jun was? & you just ignored me like that. I TELL YOU!!! IDOLS ARE FOR PUBLIC!!! But still I just kept quiet and I cant do anything. I just treat this as my fault. I dont want to argue with you.
During Aug-Sep, I cant meet you guys out oftenly as I am busy working & studying & chasing. I just merely get to meet you up during CNBLUE events. But still there is an awkwardness. I think after I come back from overseas, I neglected this friendship already. & also I just merely tweeted (N) and you scolded me again in twitter. I didnt realised that you are tweeting about me until someone told me. But why you have to say it in this way? Are relationships more important than friendships?
Recently, we just met up. Which was Zouk, I think the last time we met up was like quite long? Sorry, for the heedlessness. But I think 2OCTOBER was a memorable for YOU & I! We did a lot of funny things during the night.
In fact, I really dont know what is happening? Clare, Huiting & I purely conference on the phone. Clare told Huiting that we knew that Huiting have been faking her boyfriend. But this was none of my business alright? Till now, I dont even know why must I deserved this kind of shit from you? You said it in sms "BUT DO YOU BELIEVE IN ME?" (All I can say is that, I am a center person, how do you want me to answer this question?) I did trust you alot alot alot! DO YOU KNOW THAT? And now you want to end this friendship. I felt so hapless!
I am still craving for this friendship. But do you? THE ANSWER FROM YOU WAS "YES. I AM ENDING THIS FRIENDSHIP. GOODBYE!"
How sad?! What can I do? This is what you want. What I said I have already said. Friends out there, kept on telling me to give up this friendship but I really cant bear with this friendship. Friends asking me, WHAT AM I HOPING FOR? I am hoping for this friendship to continue... Do you know? Yes, I am dumb! I really really really want to continue this friendship but you dont give this friendship a chance.
Sorry to all my friends out there, I know you guys are worrying for me! I know I am dumb and stubborn! I still really really really want to give it a try.
Anyway, I think I have done my part. Shirley, if you have anything that bothers you, feel free to call/text me up! No matter how you treated me, I still treat you as a close friend who willing to listen to me ranting.
GOODBYE MY DEAREST SHIRLEY TAN YEN LI! I LOVE YOU AS A CLOSE FRIEND! (: ALL THE BEST IN WHATEVER YOU DO! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!
